I stepped on the scale for my weekly weigh in and saw the same 155 pounds from last week and I felt discouraged and wanted to quit. My to-do list has eaten my workout time this last week, and the results glared up at me from the scale. Time for a pep talk. I stared my reflection in the eye sternly.
“I want it all off. You are so close. The to-do list needs to back off while you vanquish these last 20 pounds. You can do this. Seriously, get with the program here. I have a lot riding on this.” My reflection listened to my scolding without enthusiasm.
“I’m tired of you being so mean to me all the time. I feel like I don’t even know you anymore. I really want some chocolate ice cream,” said Mirror Me. The tone was whiny and pathetic. When a house this close is divided, the only way to peace is through compromise. I made Mirror Me some chocolate ice cream and ate two bowls.
Now we both feel better. Mirror Me had a treat and no longer feels deprived. I have no guilt because the recipe I used only has bananas, unsweetened soy milk and Hershey’s unsweetened cocoa powder. The result? A rich, chocolately frozen treat that I have absolutely no guilt over.
The trick is frozen bananas. I cut them in chunks and froze them overnight. I tossed the chunks into a blender with some soy milk and a tablespoon of cocoa powder and blended. The result is sweet and creamy with a rich, soft serve texture. Freeze it for a firmer, more scoop-able texture. I can eat this all day long.
I’m excited to try this different ways. Recently I’ve discovered the amazing-ness of afregatto where I work at Cafe Bienville. This involves a scoop of handmade gelato in a coffee cup in a bath of steaming espresso.
I haven’t indulged much because of the whole losing weight thing, but I have thought about this gelato/espresso combination probably every day with longing. Now I will try my guilt free ice cream in a bath of espresso. Probably for breakfast. Every day. For the rest of my life.
I also want to try making it with my 310 meal replacement shake instead of soy milk. I think the natural sweetness of the shake will go perfectly with the bananas. A dusting of cocoa powder across the top and I suspect I will have discovered guilt free perfection.
I think the bottom line here is that I have had to make concessions. I’m not immune to being discouraged. It doesn’t matter if I trip up and stumble as long as I get back up again and keep going. If I keep going without quitting, I will eventually get there, no matter how many arguments I have in the bathroom mirror.
Having little indulgences, especially harmless ones, just helps get Mirror Me to shut up and fall back in line. Helps when her mouth is full.