This poem is from Hallucinated Jungle, one of my current works in progress. The title is a nod to Paulicéia Desvairada (Hallucinated City) by Brazilian poet Mário de Andrade. The poem itself is a concrete hallucinism, a fusion of shape poetry and the modernism style Andrade pioneered. “Alleged Confession” reflects a private struggle I’ve been dealing with over the past year or so: the potential diagnosis of high functioning autism.
I haven’t taken the final step to be officially diagnosed yet. I don’t know if I will. I tell myself it doesn’t matter, it explains so much, no one will treat me different… but for now I can only write a poem about it.
It’s the best way I can deal with it today. This poem is titled: